that Blogger has been down for nearly two full days, wiping out the last post -- at least for me. My last post was a recounting of a terrible moment with Sophie as she seized outside of a tennis court where Oliver was having a lesson. Sophie had been doing very well -- the new medication appeared to be helping her immensely. During the last couple of weeks, though, the big seizures have returned, and while it's still not that bad, in the scheme of things, we decided to raise the medication and see if that helps. She's now on about the biggest dose that she could be on which makes me half-hopeful and half-insane. As she reached for her drink this morning and overshot, I wondered if she saw double. I helped her back to her room after breakfast this morning and she literally fell into bed and sleep. She's still sleeping now, and I'm wondering if we're poisoning her. I'm wondering if the medication will kick in and the seizures will stop. I'm wondering if she'll become tolerant of the side effects or not.
I'm wondering if I'll ever stop wondering.