Sunday, September 29, 2019

What's Elusive

"The Unicorn"
Los Angeles Metro Bus


Here's the good thing. My old friend Bill Martin has this new show out -- a comedy on Thursday nights called "The Unicorn." I went to UNC with Bill, and he is still the sweet, incredibly funny man I knew more than thirty years ago. Ya'll should watch his show because it's also sweet and very, very funny and we all need funny, right?

Here's the bad thing. I need a lot of funny these days. I am not going to mince words. There's a lot of shit going down in these parts -- most of it unbloggable. I guess I am going to mince words. There's a tremendous amount of hate and rage roiling around me personally. I need all your positive juju and miracle-making, please. The other night I got into my car at 10:30 at night and drove all the way to Venice Beach in my robe and nightgown. I screamed in the car and then listened to Van Morrison sing "And It Stoned Me." I listened to Bob Marley sing "No Woman No Cry." Sophie's fine. The Brothers are good. I am not fine or good. I am digging deep to find my way back to the calm and peace that I know is somewhere within, still.

I love this poem:

Before Winter by Kwame Davis

16 comments:

  1. I do so wish you peace, Elizabeth. If anyone on this earth deserves it, it is you.

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  2. I'm so sorry to hear this, Elizabeth.

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  3. Dear Elizabeth I am sending you salt air and deep black clouds and the blessings of the owl the hawk the smallest salamander. Holding you in my green heart. Love, Rebecca

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  4. Dear Elizabeth, I am thinking of you, holler all you need. I can hear you.

    I am listening to Nadia Reid in the middle of the night when I don't know where's left and right, front or back.
    https://youtu.be/y_Yt-_DS3bI

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  5. Shit, shit, shit. I'm so sorry things are ugly right now. Sending you Metta and light (you are light; you have a multitude of us out here to remind you of this when you need it). xoxo

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  6. I don't know if you've ever watched The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel but I was reminded of a scene in the show when she goes out drunk in her nightgown and ends up on stage at a comedy club.

    There is much shit in the world and screaming in your car is not a bad way to deal with it. You should have heard me screaming and swearing when I found out that my stepdaughter and her mother bought a house together with some of the money they saved while living in our home rent free, ensuring that I will never be able to see my granddaughters. Oy vey!

    Things will rebalance themselves, I hope. Sending hugs and love.

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  7. Sending you Positive Energy and wishing you Peace during this difficult time. It's good your Friend has a new Show with Funny, certainly we do all Need that right now!

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  8. So much hate. So much rage. Hard to bear that all of the time. Therapy helped me until it didn't.But i hear therapy helps many to be less besieged.Not simple, therapy. It made me stare at myself til i couldn't bear it anymore. But the right kind i think can pour in some hope.

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    1. Thanks, Anonymous. The rage and hate is directed AT me. I find therapy enormously helpful — have gone for many years and not just to work through my own conflicts. I go for the connection, for the assistance in learning about mysel. I go for advice and mothering and wisdom.

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    2. At you? How awful. I am so sorey and sorey i misunderstood.

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  9. I'm sorry to hear about the negative stuff going on now. When I lived in Florida I used to sometimes get out and drive around at night to work off stress -- it's amazingly effective! Take care of yourself.

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  10. Sending you heaps of positive ju ju, all the way from Amsterdam. Bon courage

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  11. Awful that you have to deal with this, hate and rage are so destabilizing, hurtful and draining. I hope you can find a sanctuary in which to tend the hurt and fill yourself back up. Lovelovelove.

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  12. It sounds exhausting. You must be so weary. Tonight when I look into the night sky I will send all the good and positive thoughts your way.

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  13. Dearest Elizabeth-You are cherished and loved from here. Rage on, sister. Van Morrison works. Beethoven's 9th is a personal favorite. At full volume.

    XXX Beth

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    1. Rage at you? Not gonna ask why. The world is a fekking mess. And sometimes it's just too much work to be a warrior all the time. The three point answer to the last NYT 'Spelling Bee' was 'unbroken'. May we all be unbroken. Whole.

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