Tuesday, September 30, 2014

Interior



As I loaded my car with a bunch of crap from Target today, I had one of those bourgeois moments of despair. I'm not going to elaborate because it's been done before, and it bores me probably more than it would bore you. It had something to do with the plastic bottle of environmental clothes detergent and the California drought, the quandary of two decades of diaper wipes on Sophie's skin, a bag of French onion bread flavored potato chips. You know what I'm talking about, right? This blog is nothing but an endless conversation, isn't it? The other day, I had a long-distance healing from a famous healer. I have done these things on and off for a long time, and I believe in them to the extent that I believe my purchase of environmental detergent is going to make a dent in the ocean of sulfates that our species has been bathed. I open my heart to it as much as I do to the hope that the several hundred dollars I made recently doing a small project for a friend is going to tide me over until something else comes along. Dig a new hole and then fill it up. The healer was funny and sweet and had some incisive comments and advice. She said a bit of mumbo jumbo about gratitude and vibrations of abundance, but she also spoke about the word please and how it doesn't work in prayer. She said beautiful things about forgiveness and gave me an exercise to do that involves letters to those I need most to forgive. When you're in the emotional basement, she said, bring it to the ceiling. That makes me think of balloons, somehow, and the way they bob and float around a house for days.

Don't think about what you don't have. Think about what you desire.


8 comments:

  1. "Nothing but an endless conversation" nothing wrong with that! It's honest and real.

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  2. Wow. Well, that's a bit different, isn't it?

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  3. "Don't think about what you don't have. Think about what you desire. (I would add) And be grateful for what you do have."

    Like the beautiful ambience of light, warmth, shadow, lovely color in the photo above. And all the little moments that you know and love.

    cool, it rhymes!:)

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  4. Wisdom. Right here in this post. Healing too.

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  5. Oh, now I'm REALLY excited for you to call me!!

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  6. Reminds me of this, which I read last night:

    The bright side of the planet moves toward darkness
    And the cities are falling asleep, each in its hour,
    And for me, now as then, it is too much.
    There is too much world.
    -Czeslaw Milosz

    Love.

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  7. I love that your heart is open. To everything. Why not? I will be imagining us pulled skyward by vibrantly colored balloons all day.

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  8. It's like turning off the news when everything on it is crappy and frightening, I think. It takes some effort, but once you do, you realize all of the cool things that are happening around you; birds chirping, kids laughing, good food cooking. I wish our brains weren't wired for problem solving because it means that we're always looking for problems. If only we were hard-wired for appreciation, instead.

    Have a beautiful day.

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