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I don't believe in the power of prayer. Even if you insist. I do believe in the open-ness of intention. That might sound ridiculous. I held Sophie in my arms this morning and asked for mercy and light. I know that I can't pray for Sophie to be healed, nor for me to know how to fix things, to figure them out. I know that I can be opened to caring for her more fully, more presently, with more resilience and calm. I know that I can gather her in my arms, her limbs wrought from mine, all her limbs. I know that healing is around us, in the air, in the crunch of yellow flowers that litter the lawn, brittle yet bright, despite.
Ask and open to receive.
It doesn't seem fair to weave some words together and fling them out there. Sophie is at school today. She's not great, but she's at school. I'm taking her to the osteopath this afternoon. I'm surrounding her with wellness in spite of the relentless downturn. That's the way I've done it for two decades. I spoke to Dr. Goldstein this morning, the doctor who helps us with all things cannabis-related. For the first time in weeks, I felt helped. We have a plan. Dr. Goldstein said, You are not alone. I will help you.
I'm on the other side of the country, asking with an open heart, for Sophie, for you.
ReplyDeleteI surround you and Sophie with love, my friend. I don't pray, but I do believe in the power of love to ease pain. I am so glad you have Dr. G. to be your advocate and your support. Lean in. Breathe.
ReplyDeleteVerna
8 little golden words, amazing how much words can help. It is heartening to know that you will get a little support and hopefully, clarity.
ReplyDeleteI'm thinking of Sophie and you both today. Two brave women, intertwined.
Thinking of you and Sophie and the boys, wishing you light and mercy. I don't pray either, I just wish for luck and count my blessings and hope that's enough. I love Dr. Goldstein. He's right, you are not alone. I hope he helps. Hugs to you.
ReplyDeleteSending love. (And will deliver more heart shaped cookies day or night.) xxo
ReplyDeleteYou are not alone Elizabeth. I'm really happy that Dr. Goldstein is with you! We too had a glimmer of hope today but I'm too afraid to talk about it. Yet.
ReplyDeleteYou are certainly not alone.
ReplyDeleteAnd neither am I and for that, I am so grateful.
Thank you. And you know why.
Those precious words, that intention, "you are not alone." The comfort of companionship on the hard road. Thanks be to God, the Universe, Higher Power, Mother of all. Sending love and solidarity with you.
ReplyDeleteThis morning I dreamed about homeopathic remedies, and advice, and that my daughter's two friends came to visit and that she was wearing something different and sat and talked with them (sensory issues have kept her home in the same clothes, unwashed, for the last year and a half). It was just a dream, but at least it was a positive image.
ReplyDeleteI know what it is to need that help - I'm so glad the doctor is there for you.
Adding my intentions to yours. ❤️
ReplyDeletehttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0JcL5MnbqQ0
ReplyDeleteOne of my favorite Patty Griffin songs...You Are Not Alone.
What a simple and enormous gesture. Would that there were more health care practitioners out there who said (and meant) such things. I am thrilled that you and Sophie have him on your team. And I know that you know you aren't alone, but when someone takes the time to stop and tell you that, it is magical. Sending love and light your way. All will be well. XO
ReplyDeleteI am with you soldier sister.
ReplyDeleteForever,
Sending you strength, love, solidarity and peace
with the heartfelt desire that it helps to soothe your soul.
I am not sure I truly understand the meaning of the word prayer, but I can tell you what I do believe in:
Quiet
My suggestion to you dear Elizabeth is find your quiet.
What is Sophie’s reaction to this state?
I do not profess that this will cure your beautiful daughter.
It will only help you
but YOU are her everything.
xo