I put Oliver on the bus today that will take him up to camp in the Sierra Nevada mountains. He was very excited -- this is his second year at this particular camp -- and while I am happy (and grateful) to be able to give him this experience and more than happy to have a little breathing room away from his 24/7 intensity, there's a melancholy that accompanies saying good-bye. It doesn't help that it's Sunday, that tomorrow Henry, too, will be going away for ten days and that I will be finally on my way to my respite trip to Canada. The hen feels a bit unmoored at the prospect of pecking along without her chicks. I know that once I'm away, it will feel different, but right now, today, well -- yikes, I'm blue.
Most natural thing in the world. However, in my experience (which as you know is vast) as soon as the wheels of the plane leave the ground, you will be filled with lightness.
ReplyDeleteOr so I hope, anyway. Because darling, you deserve it.
God, do I ever understand! Nothing for it but to breathe and breathe. I hope Canada is lightness and magic and air. Sending love, dear friend.
ReplyDeleteOliver looks different. He must be rearranging his face for camp.
ReplyDeleteI remember every time Page went to camp all the parents would stand around kind of grief stricken for a while before we disbanded. I would come home and clean in a fury. It never gets easier. You will be so close to me in BC that I can wave and it will change the air.
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I hope you and both boys have wonderful times and come back with great stories.xx
ReplyDeleteI am sorry for your blue. I hope that your time away is everything you hope it to be, though, and even more.
ReplyDeleteSending love.
I know that feeling ... But just think how joyful the homecoming will be :)
ReplyDeleteTen days will pass quickly -- you'll enjoy your free time once you're underway!
ReplyDeleteblue is one of the colors of the rainbow. love you.
ReplyDeleteI can totally relate.
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