one of the sculptures hanging in an atrium at the Los Angeles County Central Library
Today, Sophie felt fine. It might be the first day in months that she felt fine and since I'm superstitious, I'm only writing this once with immense gratitude.
We decided to head downtown to explore a new neighborhood and ride Angel's Flight. Angel's Flight is dubbed "the shortest railroad in the world" and has been open and running in downtown Los Angeles since 1901, except for the brief time recently when there was a terrible crash and an elderly man was killed. It recently re-opened and still costs only $.25 a ride.
First, we went to California Plaza and admired the fountains and buildings that rose up all around us in the blue sky.
We bought tickets and got on Angel's Flight.
It's very steep and it's difficult, at least for me, NOT to think about the car gone crazy that crashed years ago. Oliver continually reminded me of it but in a hopeful way (Mom, do you think it would crash? It would be kind of cool, right?)
I ignored him and then forced the two boys to sit and let me take their picture.
Sophie really looks, here, better than she has for MONTHS. I am so relieved.
Then we pushed Sophie in her wheelchair all the way down Bunker Hill which is immensely steep -- San Francisco-like steep. We visited the magnificent Central Los Angeles Library and spent more than an hour there.
I know that I've mentioned it before, but really, I'm a closet librarian. There might be nothing on earth more pure for me than my love of books. And libraries. Well, maybe not pure but certainly orgasmic. Are they the same thing? The elevators at the downtown library are lined with old card catalog, Dewey Decimal cards. I had to explain this archaic system to the boys.
When we stepped off the elevator and made our way to the Children's Literature section, I insisted that Henry take this picture (and I had to explain that in these drawers lay all the wonders of the universe to me, when I was a child).
Really, libraries make me feel like I've died and gone to some sort of heaven. The sight of the books stacked, the smell of the stacks, the quiet, the anticipation of things found and worlds explored. I can still remember what it felt like to crouch in the aisle, a book in my hand and read the flyleaf, the crackly, crinkly clear cover protector whispering under my fingers.
We left the library and realized that we had to push Sophie in her wheelchair back UP Bunker Hill. Holy crapola. Just yesterday, as I was driving around in my car I felt this sort of free-floating anxiety that I hadn't exercised, really, in months.
I could barely, just barely, make it up the hill, but the boys took over the pushing.
They're amazing. My angels, really.
When we got back to the top, we ate chicken schnitzel from a truck (all the rage in Los Angeles these days). The schnitzel was pounded very thin and served with lemon slices, just like they do in Austria. The guys who cooked in the truck were Israeli, of course. I told them that my husband was a Swiss German chef, and they got nervous. But it was delicious -- amazing what can come out of a truck. I let the boys have a huge bottle of Fanta each as they'd been so helpful and uncomplaining all day.
When we finished, we piled into the car with stacks of library books and headed on home. We passed through quite a bit of urban grit, down and out neighborhoods and crowds of immigrants and businesses catering to Koreans and Latinos. Oliver asked whether these were bad neighborhoods, and I told him that they weren't bad but that they were a bit rough. I thought of those who dislike our city, their lamentations of crime and poverty and dirt, of immigrants laboring at jobs that "real" Americans won't do. I thought of my own little Oliver whose sensibilities are, sometimes, like that as well. He feels threatened and dislikes difference, and I see that as part of his personality and something that I can, at best, only temper. The thing is that my personality is quite different. I thrill to what is urban, to the grit and the clamor and the teeming life. It's alive to me and immensely exciting. I see the poverty, the despair -- yes, I do see it, but there's something within me that also sees life. I thought of how much there is to be done in this world, to alleviate suffering, to work for those who are vulnerable. I ramble, now, after such a stimulating day --
