Sigh. I landed up withdrawing from my fellowship. I feel right and good about this, but I'm definitely disappointed, too. I sent an email out to my fellow trainees last night, explaining why, and began receiving replies that were very supportive this morning. But when I logged on to the account later to see if there were any more, I realized that I had been cut off.
Sigh.
The whole thing is weird. How it was handled. I've literally heard nothing except for a few words from my supervisor.
Sigh.
I'm moving on quickly from this one, though. No drama (
and the powers that be can rest easy knowing there won't be any contagion loosed upon the mighty halls of academe)
The holidays (and all the accompanying drama) have turned me into a lurker but I read this and was just sad -- sad that you had no real choice but to withdraw, sad that you were cut off the trainee list before you could finish saying goodbye, sad you only had a few words from your supervisor and sad that this program lost YOU.
ReplyDelete*big hug*
ReplyDeleteI'm really sorry. Has the our world really become strangely weird and paranoid, or is it just me?
ReplyDeleteDid you read that article in the New Yorker this week? Mother Courage? I thought of you the entire time I was reading it.
ReplyDeleteElizabeth, when you find the right place to be to do the work you want to do, you won't have to wear a fucking mask.
In the meanwhile, there you are, taking care of what is right in front of you- a Herculean task- and you do it with grace and love and a staggeringly good sense of humor.
You are loved.
I echo Mary's sentiments. I'm so sorry; it's just sad on so many levels.
ReplyDeleteThis is just so wrong, really, it is. I am so sorry to hear it came to this. Jen
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry! What sort of leadership training example do they think they're promoting?! (As someone who had a fine experience with the program at another university last year -- I'm disappointed in their handling of the program as well as angry on your behalf!)
ReplyDeleteI think I missed something about what's been going on with the fellowship.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry Elizabeth! I know how much you were committed to that.
I send you hugs. I'm hanging off the back of that truck with you! xo
I'm sorry for all of it.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry you had to give up your fellowship. It made me so sad to read this. And the way they handled the situation, just plain disappointing.
ReplyDeleteYou're wise, Elizabeth. In so many ways. To have taken a stand and made the choice. And now to move on.
ReplyDeleteYou're giving yourself the most life you can and that's all anyone can do.
And your choice will free your time for other opportunities.
I'm sorry.
ReplyDeleteLate on the uptake here, but I admire your standing up for what you believe is right. Sorry it had to come to that, though. I know your fellowship was something you were enjoying (outside of the flu shot thing).
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