Jinxes

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Almost all the people I know who are voting for Obama are incredibly nervous today, waiting for tomorrow. And all of them don't want to "jinx" it. I feel a little like that but far less so than I did four years ago. I don't even have butterflies in my stomach tonight. I'm not sure why and hesitate to say that I feel Obama is going to win -- I don't want to jinx it.

But, there, I've said it. I'm anticipating a Wednesday morning where I'll be able to tell my sons and my daughter and my non-citizen husband that, yes, we live in a wonderful country where things like this can happen. The world is lighter today.

I positively imagine a more ebullient world and while I know this is partly fantasy, I'm not sure why it can't really be so. Even for a moment. What if the economy is failing in a way that it'll never come back to where it was? What if our way of life is going to change irrevocably? When I meditate I am filled with a vision of a world that demands these things -- I'm not sure the planet will survive otherwise. I also am a firm believer in the things never change philosophy -- in fact, I wrote a whole post about Ecclesiastes and All is Vanity. If there's anything that I need to do it's figuring out some sort of balance between "there's nothing new under the sun" and "the world is evolving into the Aquarian Age."

But all this is rambling and perhaps my own way of dissolving butterflies. I actually really don't want to even think about the prospect of the election going the other way. Now THAT would be a jinx.